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Thursday, September 01, 2005

big big fit...

yehh…dis arvo….me + fizzi…(aol)
I typ in minimal punctuation in aol

f: now what?
me: nothing…really
f: come on, what’s up lahh…
me: look, its nothing got to do with you ok?
f: so you leave me out like this?
me: I don’t care, she gave me enough problems…im sorry ok?
f: no you’re not sorry
me: fine, im not sorry, you’re happy now?
f: yes, I am happy, happy that you’re in this situation, yehh right…
me: oh now you put the blame on me?
f: yes actually
me: yes? you better watch it
f: no YOU better watch it, you don’t know half of the words coming out of YOU”RE bloody mouth
me: I swear, don’t bitch like her
f: well you’re actin like her, so I might as well
me: you might as WHAT?
f: I might as well bitch like her, seeming the fact that things are never YOU”RE BLOODY FAULT
me: so you’re saying that I’m selfcentred?
f: yes, and?
me: do you even know who you’re talking to?
f: yes phil?
me: …
f: you realise that you never truly take blame, spreadin it to everybody else
f: oh yehh, im sure she has experienced the same shit, the bullshit, the lies, the abuse, im sure she took it all…
f: except, karma came to you, now you know how it feels
me: yoOh betta stop dis shyt ryt now
f: oh yessss, afta all da lies I “tried” to get back to you, tried to tell you that its only your paranoia that’s makin yourself shit this way, but no, you said goodbye, cos it’s for the “good of me”, now hey, she left for da fukkn “good of you” so you can experience this loneliness yourself, drown in ur own verbal dirrahoea, and drink back ur piss steam coming back from YOUR HEAD.
me: YOU FUCKING HAD ENOUGH?
COS I HAD, GET OUT OF MY FACE



yehh…..bad way 2 start da blog….but hey..
I don’t know…but fiz ish right bout me….i reli should shutup and get on with other stuff…
this thing ish 2 mind bogglin…I reli should take mah mind off her now…n leave it to some other date…dedication can onli go so far…yehh…
im sorry fizzi…I have 2 post this…n I noe its mah fault for warh I have done, but yehhh…
alright, u win ok, I noe warh u wanna say, so I’ll let u go…
go on, fly away…

fly away….

break away…

lets meet some other time, aiight?
im sure ur trying very hard 2 forget about me, but it seems it ain’t gonna happen wif sum moron lyk me taggin along ur back…
so now, ill give u warh u want.

but if u do come back, we can at least pretend to be friends, can’t we?

n 2 fizzi, im sorry 4 warh I’ve sed…inoe im 2 self centred once agen…meticulously complacent as I am, I guess da onli person givin me trouble ish me mahself…plz forgive me…